Sup dead thing?

Yup, you bloggy, I'll just call you "B".

Ya know what B? Just 6 more views and I shall have 1337 total views! w0ot! trololol


AAAAAAAAAAANYWAY, I am sleepy... and for some reason... maybe some very special reason... I decided to get back here and start writing.

First, my life's current achievements and skills gained or things doing or bla bla bla youknowwhatImeanbutifyoudon'tthenhopefullyyouwillbecauseIwillsaywhatIhavedoneandstuffandyoucantakeyourownconclusionsfromtherealrightBandpals?

Ok good, so here goes:

- I still haven't worked much on sad mary since I managed to make a button work on the shop menu... I side-tracked a but... as usual... (dammit I hate being like this...);

- I have started to learn about linux, not just having it installed on my computer, actually studying it with a pdf and some practice according to what they say and... god... DAMN! They were NOT kidding when they said that I had to read a LOT! Imagine, the pdf has around 220 pages... and now and then they tell us "now try and type man ls" ("man" being the command for acessing the "manual" pages, and "ls" the command itself) and that manual page has around 170 lines (or more) of information... now imagine that on hundreds of possible commands, not to mention that "ls" is one of the simplest commands (it only shows what files you have on a folder)... there are ALSO the info pages... which are something like the man pages so yeah... a LOT of reading...;

- Guitar is stalled as well... thanks *me* for being so productive with your life...;

- FINALLY!!! I DID SOMETHING I ALWAYS WANTED TO! :D
I managed to host a server (for Terraria in this case) without any use of hamachis, or any kind of software to create virtual networks! ^^
Basically I can now host a server with as many people as I want and without them having to install complicated craps and stuff ^^

(BY THE WAY: if someone likes Terraria please please please tell me so we can play together :') (((specially you))) );

- And btw, side note, SCP containment breach is now on version 0.5.6! Which means that now there really is an escape! xD
... but it did get a lot harder... just saying spoilerlessly...
If you wanna try it out, here: SCPcbgame and be warned: ... just... don't try it if getting scared can kill ya...

- Dunno... think that must be it for now...



Now... about life itself... there has been lots and lots of things to think about lately... about various amounts of subjects... about college teachers?... I will not even talk about that... I have wasted enough time doing it already... I'll just hope the students' evaluations will do anything in the end...
Nah... the other stuff... don't think classes are going all that bad so I don't think they're an issue... either way, they are not even that hard most of them.
Now... I'm not saying it's been easy, but I'm not about to give up.

Sure life gets hard some times. Sure we some times may even feel like giving up and throw it all away. Of course we all think at times that something is bound to fail and lose all of our hope, or enter in despair because of the imminent destiny... but I usually am not affected by any of that... but of course, I in no way mean that things don't happen to me, oh no! They do and they do a LOT! Nearly everyday from everywhere.

Be it for my way of being, for a thing I said, for me just existing at that space, for some random reason, for a misunderstanding, from a miscalculated plan, etc etc etc...

But I always try to look on the bright side, on what to do to fix that before it happens and, if I can't think of a way to stop or change it, I'll just remodel my thoughts to "What will happen if THAT happens?" and "How will it then affect me and my life?" and even if all that is "bad" for me let's face it... if I just got worried or sad or anything.... what would happen then? The future or past wouldn't change, and the only difference would be that I would be feeling bad then while/after it happened and/or "now" for thinking about it.

Of course, I in no way mean that we shouldn't care... I'm just saying that if it happens, just face it the best way you can, it will all fix itself with time...

Between the choice of "Something happening and me getting miserable" and "Something happening and me moving on and feeling well" of course I would rather feel well... is that not true for every person?

I don't know... I am kind of glad I have that "gift" of being able to face adversities with a smile on my face, I mean... what have I to lose...?...

Well... there is only one thing I do not want to lose... you may know what it is, or you may not... chances are, if you are reading this, specially if you got here to this part of the text, you MUST know what it is... and no it's not air... I think I would be better without air actually than...

But it doesn't matter now... Still on topic of "bad" events... How can I remain sad at something if at the end of the day... I can hold her tight in my arms? I mean... seriously... There is nothing in the world... that could be stronger than that... no matter what catastrophe could happen... just lying in bed next to her would automatically cleanse me of all bad things... I fell calm... in peace... I feel warm and fuzzy... I feel... happy :)

Not happy as my body has gotten used to all these years, not the regular generic "happy"... but happy all over... I literally feel it in my whole body, my chest, my arms, my legs, my head, my eyes...

Her alone takes away all rights I might have for ever being sad... eheheh.... my cute little angel ^^

I think that might be the only link between me and sadness... while I have her I don't think I'll ever be able to truly be sad... and I don't mind at all for that! In fact... if that is the only real link... I sure do hope I never get sad...

She brings me happiness every day... just thinking about her and our past moments... I'm crazy for that girl!
But of course, she is not "mine" as in it's still her life and she has her own decisions... And I shall always be there for her, no matter what :)

Gotta take care of what's good to ya right? And since she is my miracle cure... I think it's about fare that I take care of her and protect her the rest of my life right? ^^

Now it is late so I better go... but there is just so much to say...

Either way... I just wish I can get a good laptop soon... one that would run almost all application and software and had a big harddrive and battery life...

Farewell me cobweb-filled piece of Internet files! Farewell B! Until next time.