21st century problems... near desperation...

While waiting for her to play I decided to write something... (as it was already posted...) but when I saw that the window where I was talking was grayed out I was like "oh no :/" as usual, my house internet had failed... "dammit... might as well try another wireless... since I have an account and all"... but every time I tried it it gave me some stupid error and wouldn't let me... I was literally starting to feel desperate... even knowing she didn't have messages or any means to contact me I still sent her a few messagens to tell her what's going on... I then tried my USB wireless pen thingie... but it didn't work either! I reset my PC, my router... EVERYTHING! But it just wouldn't work! I was really starting to get desperate... I didn't even say "goodbye" or anything like that to her.... sure it wasn't my fault... butt I just left without saying a thing... even though I didn't like how it could be that she was feeling because of that, I really didn't like it... I missed her on that half hour I didn't speak... bah stupid I know... "oh look at him all worried for a 30 minute break on his internet" but meh... I missed her more than the internet... and missed her a lot... overreacting? Maybe I am... but it's what I feel and it's just how much she is to me...

And... if you are reading this... thank you for everything... you make my every day worth living :')

Write my darling, write!

Well it's a thing we have in common... we love reading each other's blogs... why? Actually, I don't really know... but I like reading about it, specially when there is something in those texts... I read a superb one a few days ago that made me... well... "happy" wouldn't even be close as to describe how I felt... and also wanted... and... loved...

"She's a special little girl with a special little heart..."* I've said it before... and I still think so!
She is the most special thing to ever have blessed my life...
Sure my life isn't THAT long but it isn't that short either... just looking at her feels like a blessing, and actually being with her is like a trip to heaven... a moment in paradise... in which I just wished time would just stop...

Meh... at least... this time I'm not alone ^^


*(Please add "precious" to "special", but it would be weird if I put those two together in the same sentence :P, but I just can't let it go without mentioning ^^ )

MERDA!

It always makes me laugh xD

My computer...

Is still making me mad! Why is this one better than the last one but eats away all my letters?! :(

Instead of taking 5 minutes to write a text I take 10 or more! It's so frustrating... I think I'm just gonna delete everything and start again >.<

It's true that I have a lot open at the same time but.. bah!

Finally up and awake

Finally I'm out of bed, after waking up with the alarm clock, I pressed it to ring again afte like 5 minutes.... I did this for an hour, while having smaall dreams in between, and halucinatios that I was speaking to her while I did it... but after a while I would realise: Hey... that's impssible... she doesn't even have texts... press the alarm clock, sleep, halucinate, repeat...

Finally, one hor later, I got out of bed and decide to go have a bath, I turned on my computer and went onto have a bath... all was normal utill I came back... I looked at my screen and saw big silver letter going around the screen saying "MERDA!" ad I thought "oh nice..."... but what I really thought and and still think when I remember it is: "HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH xD"

Well anyway, I have to go eat in a while, and I hve to meetup at 4 so we can rehearse... so this shall be my last post for now :)

Also just remembered... probably I wont be able to play PSO with her :/
... oh well...

It exists on everyone...

Currently it is 7:07AM... still havent slept...

Why? I'm not sure... She's not even around here anymore so... why am I awake?
I don't know... maybe the conversation touched me so... that I've just been mindlessly thinking about it... and recalling it... My state of happinesss cannot be told or written... it is far above anything I've ever been... I... Don't even know what to do or write...

I made her believe in love... and that's a fact not a though... I knew it... I knew everyone was capable of love, I knew it!! ^^

I was so happy to know that! What has been my desire for month has finally become true!

I feel a bit more rested now... what could be gone at any time... seems that it will remain now =)

And that makes me happy... makes me feel good... because those things were the reasons why my last few weeks of living were happy... made me smile, made me glad to be alive, made me love and feel loved in return...

I always knew this day might come... but never really expected it to... is it weird? 0_o

Well... it is true now... some times even I have trouble believing it but... guess I'm gonna have to get used to it :)

Never give up on what you truly love... and always take good care of it...

No matter how impossible it may seem... never lose hope... you can do it if you try and just don't give up...

And "J."... thank you for being born... thank you for existing... thank you for always being with me... even if you're far away.... thank you for making my every day happy... thank you for everything.... thank you... thank you just for existing... <3

About... thingies

We'll let's see, tomorrow I have to be in ARCUM by 4PM so I hope I can wake up before that x)
We're going to be the choir of a church as I believe I already mentioned, and we're gonn- HER... uhm sorry, we're gonna be there untill maybe 8 or so... gotta ask my parents if they can come and get me after that, then I can finally go back home and wait calmly for wednesday!!1 ^^

Anyway my house here in braga is a mess... garbage and used tissues everywhere... almost no "practical" food (that which you can just grab and eat) and there are things all over the place in my room... oh well x)

Anyway I don't think I have much more to write... I miss her very much but... We can only be together in a few days so... I'll just have to wait... to make matter worse I can't contact her by cellphone either.... bah.........

I miss her tight grasp around me... Her soft breathing against my skin... Her soft skin under my finger... I miss her... but... there's nothing I can do about it now... I'll just wait...

Ilhvm though... and that's for sure :)

Well have a good night everyone, there are special things in this world, but there are other that one can't even begin to describe... guess who I'm talking about ^^