Sup B?

Not much around here... Can't sleep for some reason, I know I should, I really do, but something doesn't want me to go to bed yet... I don't wanna watch any videos or play any games because that would take too much time and THEN I would REALLY go to bed late... or early, you get the idea...

The stupid thing is, even if I don't do those things because "I will only have them finished by X hours therefor I won't so that I can go earlier to bed"... I still manage to go at about the same time... It's stupid I know...

About me now... Lately I have been thinking more about programming I believe and the game's I've been playing (the most simple, 2D ones and all) I usually am playing them and thinking "hm... I think I could be able to make a game like this! It doesn't look that hard after all :)", however I still haven't gotten back into programming yet, Sad Mary is still like it was all that time later however I have been coming up with a few ideas for it...

Apparently there are only 2 weeks left till we go to Italy! :O
Honestly I can't wait :P

It's gonna me so much fun me and her around there ^^

Going to classes in a foreign country, munching on pizzas calzonies and whatnot because we can :P

Sure we made some bad decisions back then... but so what? Now that has passed, we must keep our heads up and fight for our deserved happiness!

Ya know... that girl really is something special... I don't care what she or anyone may say about us being different or whatever, we fulfill each other, we complete each other. I know I'm not perfect... she isn't either and we as a couple have our flaws as well but I don't care about any of that.
There will always be problems and unexpected things happening but we can do it, at least... When I'm with her, knowing that she is there by my side, I feel like I can do anything and without a worry in the world!

She truly is my angel you know? I would go to the end of the world for that girl... and one day that woman... she deserves so much more than what she has... I wonder how can I do it... how can I give her what she deserves? How can I show her how I really love her and how much I need her in my life?

I guess only time will tell... wish me luck, I'm going to need it, not because there's something wrong but... it is going to be a really hard task trying to give her the happiness she deserves :)

Bye'yall

Sup B?

So this has been a great week actually :)

Well, everything has it's ups and downs but the balance was really good :)
Just decided that from now on, all my class presentations and works are gonna be made entirely different, I will actually do things in a way that can (hopefully) captivate the listeners and hopefully it will all go well.

Also I started making the game again, well, completing actually, I am stalled now but that is because I couldn't work on it. It's ok though,  I will tomorrow or something :)

Hope I can do it and hope all goes well ^^

Now I must go, duty calls me, but I bet it will send me away instantly haha. bye ^^

(and just like that, I'm single)

Gudda newze!

And that's it, don't be nosy now! :D

Sup dead thing?

Yup, you bloggy, I'll just call you "B".

Ya know what B? Just 6 more views and I shall have 1337 total views! w0ot! trololol


AAAAAAAAAAANYWAY, I am sleepy... and for some reason... maybe some very special reason... I decided to get back here and start writing.

First, my life's current achievements and skills gained or things doing or bla bla bla youknowwhatImeanbutifyoudon'tthenhopefullyyouwillbecauseIwillsaywhatIhavedoneandstuffandyoucantakeyourownconclusionsfromtherealrightBandpals?

Ok good, so here goes:

- I still haven't worked much on sad mary since I managed to make a button work on the shop menu... I side-tracked a but... as usual... (dammit I hate being like this...);

- I have started to learn about linux, not just having it installed on my computer, actually studying it with a pdf and some practice according to what they say and... god... DAMN! They were NOT kidding when they said that I had to read a LOT! Imagine, the pdf has around 220 pages... and now and then they tell us "now try and type man ls" ("man" being the command for acessing the "manual" pages, and "ls" the command itself) and that manual page has around 170 lines (or more) of information... now imagine that on hundreds of possible commands, not to mention that "ls" is one of the simplest commands (it only shows what files you have on a folder)... there are ALSO the info pages... which are something like the man pages so yeah... a LOT of reading...;

- Guitar is stalled as well... thanks *me* for being so productive with your life...;

- FINALLY!!! I DID SOMETHING I ALWAYS WANTED TO! :D
I managed to host a server (for Terraria in this case) without any use of hamachis, or any kind of software to create virtual networks! ^^
Basically I can now host a server with as many people as I want and without them having to install complicated craps and stuff ^^

(BY THE WAY: if someone likes Terraria please please please tell me so we can play together :') (((specially you))) );

- And btw, side note, SCP containment breach is now on version 0.5.6! Which means that now there really is an escape! xD
... but it did get a lot harder... just saying spoilerlessly...
If you wanna try it out, here: SCPcbgame and be warned: ... just... don't try it if getting scared can kill ya...

- Dunno... think that must be it for now...



Now... about life itself... there has been lots and lots of things to think about lately... about various amounts of subjects... about college teachers?... I will not even talk about that... I have wasted enough time doing it already... I'll just hope the students' evaluations will do anything in the end...
Nah... the other stuff... don't think classes are going all that bad so I don't think they're an issue... either way, they are not even that hard most of them.
Now... I'm not saying it's been easy, but I'm not about to give up.

Sure life gets hard some times. Sure we some times may even feel like giving up and throw it all away. Of course we all think at times that something is bound to fail and lose all of our hope, or enter in despair because of the imminent destiny... but I usually am not affected by any of that... but of course, I in no way mean that things don't happen to me, oh no! They do and they do a LOT! Nearly everyday from everywhere.

Be it for my way of being, for a thing I said, for me just existing at that space, for some random reason, for a misunderstanding, from a miscalculated plan, etc etc etc...

But I always try to look on the bright side, on what to do to fix that before it happens and, if I can't think of a way to stop or change it, I'll just remodel my thoughts to "What will happen if THAT happens?" and "How will it then affect me and my life?" and even if all that is "bad" for me let's face it... if I just got worried or sad or anything.... what would happen then? The future or past wouldn't change, and the only difference would be that I would be feeling bad then while/after it happened and/or "now" for thinking about it.

Of course, I in no way mean that we shouldn't care... I'm just saying that if it happens, just face it the best way you can, it will all fix itself with time...

Between the choice of "Something happening and me getting miserable" and "Something happening and me moving on and feeling well" of course I would rather feel well... is that not true for every person?

I don't know... I am kind of glad I have that "gift" of being able to face adversities with a smile on my face, I mean... what have I to lose...?...

Well... there is only one thing I do not want to lose... you may know what it is, or you may not... chances are, if you are reading this, specially if you got here to this part of the text, you MUST know what it is... and no it's not air... I think I would be better without air actually than...

But it doesn't matter now... Still on topic of "bad" events... How can I remain sad at something if at the end of the day... I can hold her tight in my arms? I mean... seriously... There is nothing in the world... that could be stronger than that... no matter what catastrophe could happen... just lying in bed next to her would automatically cleanse me of all bad things... I fell calm... in peace... I feel warm and fuzzy... I feel... happy :)

Not happy as my body has gotten used to all these years, not the regular generic "happy"... but happy all over... I literally feel it in my whole body, my chest, my arms, my legs, my head, my eyes...

Her alone takes away all rights I might have for ever being sad... eheheh.... my cute little angel ^^

I think that might be the only link between me and sadness... while I have her I don't think I'll ever be able to truly be sad... and I don't mind at all for that! In fact... if that is the only real link... I sure do hope I never get sad...

She brings me happiness every day... just thinking about her and our past moments... I'm crazy for that girl!
But of course, she is not "mine" as in it's still her life and she has her own decisions... And I shall always be there for her, no matter what :)

Gotta take care of what's good to ya right? And since she is my miracle cure... I think it's about fare that I take care of her and protect her the rest of my life right? ^^

Now it is late so I better go... but there is just so much to say...

Either way... I just wish I can get a good laptop soon... one that would run almost all application and software and had a big harddrive and battery life...

Farewell me cobweb-filled piece of Internet files! Farewell B! Until next time.

Just to keep you alive...

... really, not much to say now, except that maybe I pooped so hard my face got red.

Also my keyboard is sucking again.

And that's about it...

Bye

Late writing... part... I don't know but let's say 1 for a start

The reason of the title is that this is one of the many things I think about writing here but only do so a long time later... in  this case, what I'm about to write is something I thought about around a month and a half ago, before my birthday a few days...

So, on one of those days, even before the day 19 I believe, my parents were out so I went to Mc Donalds to eat... as I was going home from there I looked at some of the girls I passed by, all of the full of make up, with trendy clothes and all kinds of accessories, I also looked around and saw, also thought, about how many of them are there like that... and then I thought about what I have... I simple... pure... natural girlfriend, with no make up and the clothes she likes, those that she doesn't really care what they are, and those that look like they have a few decades (not on the condition,  but the design).
And then I think to myself... there are so many girls like that... and I "got" one that's the total opposite... I truly am the  luckiest guy alive! Seriously! You have no idea how glad I get when I think about the girlfriend I have and compare her to all the other girls! Guess what... you CAN'T even compare them! She is just so perfect! She is everything I always wanted... and much more! She is also the cutest thing alive even WITHOUT ANY make up or something of the sort... she truly is a wonderful master piece... one that makes me happy... just by existing...

Good night, and I will see you again in the future :)

head hurts

therefore me no write much today... bye then

11-09-2012 - 23:40

Myrri... where could you be...?

Random thoughts and life paradoxes...

Well... ever since I can remember I like to intellectualize and try to figure everything out on every angle I could... and ever since a long time ago I thought about some random existence paradoxes... which make no sense with either alternative...

The first two I found were almost at the same time... and thinking about it are somewhat connected.


Let's start from the beginning... so the first one is time... maybe not the most paradoxical when thinking about the maximum limit but... anyway... if you think about the BEGINNING of time... then that alone would make no sense... since time is time, if it started somewhere, then there would be time before that... you can start tracking time after certain events... true... like when someone is born for example, you can account that as a time start... but there was time after that of course... but what about time? Was there time after time? Any answer be it "Yes" or "No", seems to make it wrong and contradictory...

If "Yes", then was was before that? And when did it begin? That "Yes" turns to "No" as that "start" was actually not the start, but a continuity... and if "No"... then that right there seems to become false, as there HAD to be something before it... no?

And what about the end? It should... technically... end... right? We probably won't be here but it is bound to... but then again, since it's "time", there would be more after it right? You figure it out...

I will not think about how it all began... as I never really thought about that but...

I can talk about paradox number two which is... space and it's limits...

Sure... the space is pretty big, and it does appear endless... but that there, that "limit" or lack of it is the paradox itself... it doesn't really make sense that the space is infinite does it? I mean... There has to be a point where it just stops right? But if it does stop... then what? Will you just hit a "wall"? And if you did, technically, there should still be something on the other side of that "wall" right?
Of course I wasn't the only one to think about this obviously... there are theories about that space issue, I read one once that supposedly, when you reach an "edge" of the universe you would loop and go back the other side and supposedly anyone present making that loop would start seeing everything in reverse, for example, you know that ambulances have "ambulance" written backwards on the front? So that when you saw it from the mirror you would read "Ambulance" regularly?
Well, these people would see everything just like that mirrored "Ambulance" text... I'll call that "mirror state" in case I need to use it again one day here...

But of course... that is a theory... and most likely was made since that space issue was one without a logical solution... so a loop does look plausible.

In case someone's interested, I read it in a book called "Introdução à teoria da relatividade"... by someone who I do not remember correctly but... I think it was vi(c)tor something or something vi(c)tor...

It was a tiny green book which was really, REALLY old, in fact, it seemed to have been written using a type-writer... but I did learn a lot from it, maybe I'll go try and find it again one day haha...



Well all these seem to have odd and contradictory solutions... unless "time" and "space" are things of an even more bizarre and strange nature that any of us had ever even began pondering about... even though I'm sure Einstein could have been close... if you read that book... holy freegin carp! That tiny equation he came up with, the famous "E=mc2" think... it explains almost EVERYTHING in the whole universe! And he did it WAY before it was even possible to imagine being able to test it and prove it, which was done decades later and that theory DID hold water... on most cases, there are some variations in which that theory didn't quite stay true... but he knew that, he made another "special" theory that would fill all gaps!

All this to say... yea... I'm pretty sure that equation also has the ability to find out what time really is and what affects it... time travel is a small example... but now it REALLY is late... so... half gift given...



Bye peopleszeszszeezssz ^^

Before going to bed...

Well, previously during the night I was reading a bit on what this "Slenderman" is, as it seems to be appearing quite frequently these past days... it is supposedly an adult figure with tentacles or something and no face, like a mannequin... (hm... is that word like that because of "man" and "kin"? As in it means it's a kind of man?.... well, doesn't matter now) and I read there that some believe in the tulpa effect, which consists more or less of multiple people believing in something's existence will eventually make it turn real, material, existing, even if it started just as an idea, and in this case, if many people believed in the Slenderman then he/it would become real... anyways since of the "XXX effect" title of that I decided to do some research, while I waited for her to come say "good night" one last time or something.... or not but I studied a bit about the doppler effect and sonic booms (and turns out I already knew what the doppler effect was, just didn't remember hahah)...


Anyway... My point is... after that I followed some links in the Slenderman's page... which led me deeper into the Internet... Most of you don't even know what I'm talking about... but there are parts of the Internet that not all of us go to... not saying this one was one of them, but was getting close...

Well, it was a site with stories supposed to be scary and all, well I do know most of them (at least most) are supposed to be just made up and for shivery effects... the first one I read was called "An egg", with the plain image of an egg... as weird and oddly funny as that was (being a supposed "horror" page) I clicked it... well it was a normal story, nothing scary actually, but it was quite fascinating and cool! In fact, I did post it on facebook... since it's late and all, not sure if many or any will see it... but certainly recommend it :)

Then I moved on to one called "Dead Bart"... which also had a picture of a zombie looking Bart Simpson... I also thought it was rather lol-worthy, and funny and all so I started reading... that's when it began... I started to not look at that image the same way as I went on reading it... and mind you, I am very strong as of these things, but I cannot lie, I did shiver a lot while reading that (and the next stories too...)... in fact, I am shivering all over my body just thinking about it... I will not recommend anyone to read those things I found there (not only those two or course), unless you have something to keep you steady... and specially not during night time...

But truth be told, I could have been more scared. Firstly because I was listening to random music from final fantasy IX (just now switched to final fantasy VIII but isn't working for some reason... ok done) and with the thought in mind that... I have her :)

True... I am strong and all but... I really did feel much better just thinking about her, that's why I read so many stories and... saw... those images... because I thought "I don't care how scary or fear inducing these things are before I go to bed... If I get any troubled thoughts I will just think of her... and that light will clear the darkness =) "... It is true that I actually thought that, and what's more, tomorrow I will be with her, so I will feel even better with her ^^

Don't think I want her to see any of that... well.... maybe apart from "An Egg" but... I wish for her to be happy and I don't want her to read, see or hear anything that could trouble her...



But if she really wanted to or something... I hope it will be in a time where I can be with her for long...

Not because I think she is weak or that she can't handle it but... I want  to be there and comfort her if she needs it, as these are no ordinary horror stories and are even much worse than those mails that tell you to send the things to hundreds of people or you would get an horrible fate...

Well yea, their nature does seem to be somewhat the same... Simply something created to be spread around the Internet, frightening and moving the reader...


Those stories are very powerful indeed and it is rare for me to say this...

Also, I would like to add that I read the ones (but not all) in the "Suggested Reading" section... in other words, to get started as they say... I'm not sure if they are the "softest", "most widely known" (well... yea, that I think they are), or simply the strongest so that you start really strong in it...

Either way... those things are masterfully crafted, they really did capture the essence of fear and uncertainty... and could make the simplest thing, even a drawing or a dog, a sight that you would rather not think about again... actually, now that I think about it, I am pretty sure that despite all, the thing that makes my body act more violently (as in shaking and stuff) was... in fact... a cartoon... more precisely the Bart one... even though it was the one who I initially "laughed" more at...

But all in all, most were easy to cope with, since you could find one or two traces that made it look like they were made up, such as very convenient evidence destructions, lack of proofs, unnecessary events, etc...




And with all that said, now it's time... I'm pretty sure today I will "need" her a bit more in my thought than usual though ehehhe :P

But I'm ok... because I have her ^^

She makes me happy ^^

... in fact... I think I will make some gifts for her ^^
Farewell waking up early tomorrow hahaha

I could feel better...

First I'd like to say that the past few months I've been thinking of countless ideas to write here... needless to say, I've not written any...

But I just had to write this... I could feel better now...

Here's the story, today I went to have dinner in a friend's house, after eating we were talking and all, and then me and her mother talked a lot, about our country's education system, what did she work on, etc.

All fine and good but then I looked at the time and "oh wow.. it's already 1 AM" but we talked a bit more... then  looked at it again and "oh look... it's now 4 AM!"... so I came home... when I left I sent "her" a message.... but then I saw it  wasn't delivered... so I just ran home... so that if she would be waiting for me... I would be there and at least say sorry... I wanted to talk to her... just talk... I missed her... so I ran, because if she was waiting... I didn't want her to wait any longer... I got home... she wasn't on facebook... so I turned on msn... she was there... with her status as "away" but she was there! I was really happy but a bit fearful... Checked if she was there and called for her... she didn't reply and then she got offline... What I thought was that she was waiting for me... but fell asleep with the computer turned on... and then the battery ran out just as I got home...

Now I just want to go to bed so that this day will end and I can talk to her... so bye

What... or who am I?

I have changed along the years, true... but I think some things have been the same  along the years.

In the past, I believe  I developed an extreme resistance to pain... both kinds of pain... I can handle very well almost all kinds of psychological pressure, and I guess that's why... some times people may think I'm cold... I am not, I simply have the ability to control myself really really well.

But of course, even despite all that and my ability to cope with whatever might come my way... there are still things that I never EVER want to lose... her of course...

I've never had anything like her... and I'm just so lucky that I do now! and I'm dead serious!

Speaking of that... nah never mind, I'll put that in another post...


Anyway, what I mean is... I do appreciate what I have... but some times it might just look like I don't care 100%... but I DO!

Of course I miss her... and I miss her dearly... but there are a few reasons why I don't really mind that much to not be with her for like one more week... eheh you'll see later ^.^

Anyways... that's about it for now... :)

Tu...

Morrow...

Too late... or too soon?

Of course  I'm talking about the time when I published this... which is  now...

Anyway, that doesn't matter so... onward...

I spent like the last 3 week away, it was really fun and cool ^^

True... I gained a little obsession there but... it's a lot better now at least =)

Anyway... I want a puppy :(

But I also want a lot of time to raise one so... maybe after college? Probably... I'll try... At least I have my brother  to back me up on  the decision eheheh...

Also, I bought her a little dress, I almost had to force her to accept her and in the end, I'm really glad she did, and she liked it as well ^^

And she looks so gorgeous in it... it fits her so well ^^

Can't wait for the moment where we can go for  a walk or something and her wearing that dress... it's so cute :)

And, again, since it's cute, it also means it fits her ^^

Well I don't have much more to say.. lately I've been trying to make a "wishlist" of games I'd like on the ps3... but since my friend has half of them, some I can simply try to borrow ^^

And that's about it.. I don't have a lot more to say... I think...

Oh yeah...

I forgot to mention that today I had an awesome message on the top of my youtube page... it said:
"Congratulations! Your account has now been activated for submissions with over 15 minutes of length."

Which means... yay! I don't have to worry about making videos with less that 15 minutes anymore ^^

Apart from that game-making thing I was doing I forgot that I had once made a few "Let's play" videos on youtube, a guy commented on one of them saying it was great and that he'd keep watching.. well after reading that, I decided to continue the series afters months, and so I did, I also re-uploaded my videos because the first 2 parts would freeze a lot and the image would all be messed up!

If you're interested I'll put the videos here and you can watch them (the re-uploaded versions of course)


This is the intro of the game, I made it separate from the first part because the video exceeded 15 minutes... and it wouldn't let me publish it...


This is the beginning of the game and the basics and all that... I'm still a bit mike-shy as you can see x)


Second part, the continuation of the first... clearly


And this is the last part I've made (so far...)... I think I messed up in the middle...



And that's it! If you wanna see the rest from here out, follow me on youtube and check there some times ;)

Hope I'll keep it up this time... cheers!

Today...

Today for a few hours... I wasn't myself... I don't know why... I was angry... revolted at many things.... that is NOT the me I know AT ALL!...

Sure... the game I wanted to play with my brother wasn't working... the Internet was failing... I couldn't go to the living room where the playstation is because my dad had lots of people coming to see him and more kept coming... and I was the one who had to go answer the doorbell...

Then we had to go to my grandma's place and my mother started yelling and all that... about all those little things that apart from making me who I am and others that have NO importance at all... I don't know what gotten into me... I still don't think it was any of that that made me feel that way... well, sure, I hate when my family starts yelling at me about things that I disagree on, like my appearance or something... so what if I want to let my hair grow? I don't like it... no... but I am above that, that's not what concerns me...

Apart from that... maybe the reason is that I miss her... It's the only difference in my life that I can think about...

Anyway we went to my grandma's... When I got inside I noticed I didn't have one of my cellphones with me (the one with the 91 on it if you wanna know) so back outside to get it, I figured it fell out of my pocket into the car seat... the car was locked but since I was in such a weird state and it wasn't all that bad outside I thought "meh... maybe I'll go have a walk during the night..." so I went on along the dark road... on the village you don't have much light... one street light once in a while... and maybe a car that occasionally passes by... and there I was... walking along... not knowing what to think, feel or even do... went around the village... thinking how one day if I could... maybe... bring her along in our bikes... passing through a field I once discovered while riding my bike... it looks hidden and even in the middle of all those houses... you pretty much only see a field and flowers... I love it there... but I didn't go there because I thought it was too far... funny thing is, in the end I decided to pass by it... but just before that... I leaned against a wall and just stood there for a minute or two... I can't even say if I was thinking or simply existing... I did think about writing this I'm writing now... and how I think so many  times "I should write this and that on the blog" and 99% of the times I don't... either way... I went around the other side to go back to my grandmother's place... that village is the place of my childhood and it was rather nice to see it again...

When I got back I wasn't much better than I was but... I decided to go and be with Ninja a bit (my grandma's dog), he's a small  black and white dog, always full of energy and always shaking with excitement when he sees someone... I went there and he was, of course, almost strangling himself to just come closer to me, I went there and crouched, put my hand on his head and he held himself up by putting his paws on my other hand... I don't know... there's something about that dog... how he's so full of energy and when you're close he's just so happy and well just for you to be there... and you really feel it... I've never sensed such emotions on any dog or animal... his affection and his happiness... the face he makes when you touch him... I don't know...

But from that point on, and I only stood there no more than 15 seconds... I was instantly happy again!

It was strange... but I did!

I went back him and everyone asked where I was (aka, my mom), I didn't say anything but soon enough my aunt Paula (which I've gained a lot more liking today) (or maybe it was my godmother? doesn't really matter now) said "he went to see the village right?" "yup, something like that".

Well, after dinner, and as expected, my mom started criticizing me and stuff, about all I said before, hair and all that... but my aunt defended me, it was strange... I mean strange as in... usually criticizing me is easy and all, but never had I seen someone defend me or at least talk for me...

She said that each one has it's own styles and all that... and all of a sudden all the pressure was relieved from me...

Well after that we were all sharing stories and things we did way back then... maybe I'll tell some later...


Then we told jokes to one another...

It was nice... actually nice... I think it was the first time I actually liked a familiar event... maybe because I wasn't in the "kids" table today nor did I go and play with them and stuff? Don't know... just know that it was nice =)

And I found out... well I think I already had an idea but... that there is someone very close to me who's great at drawing! And I mean it ^^

Plus I can feel it in her that she really likes arts and stuff like that... it kinda fits her, and she's talented to it =)

That's all I have to say... just two more days hopefully...

I'm tired... from the inside and the outside... I need to be with her... it's been too long... maybe that's what's been messing me up...

M...?... Please tell me we'll be together soon :)

meh...

Don't feel like writing much... not in a bad mood or anything...

In a way, wish I could have been with her today... even though it was my fault that we weren't but... on the other hand... maybe it wasn't that bad that we weren't together... well sure, I didn't like it but maybe this way we'll be a bit better if we can't stay together for longer...

Well that's about it, but I can't wait to be with her though ^^

Even if it's just to go on a walk... teehee, ily ^^

3 Months...

It's been 3 months since a certain thing became official... It started well... it went on well... and it still seems to be doing great...

I've found a girlfriend that I am certain that if I were to lose her by any chance... and get another in the future, I would always remember her dearly... always miss her... why? Because she is so perfect... she is beautiful, she has a great personality... she is funny... she loves animals... I... I never would have dreamed of ever having someone as precious as her in my life... not even as a friend... she is like an angel coming straight into my life... I still pray for us both to be happy and for a long time... which... I'm sure we'll be :)

I will never let her go no matter what happens! No matter what she does... no matter what people say.... no matter what I do... she is a constant in my life that I wish to maintain!

I would write a lot more... but with this computer... if this wasn't important to me, I wouldn't even start writing this!
This computer is just too horribly slow while typing and "eats" half of the letters...

But then again, I would do anything for this girl... this angel whose wings one cannot see, but that we can see soaring high upon the sky...
My heart belongs to you and only you M... don't you ever forget that, I'll always love you...




I know you don't like Bon Jovi... but this song... these lyrics are all I feel...

Have a nice day tomorrow... 3 months of many more to come, and I can't wait to live them with you =)

I love you so very much... sleep well my angel, and have sweet dreams ^^

I pray... I really do...

Meh, since pretty much nobody reads this anyway here it goes...
Sure, usually when I was at home, before I went to bed I always prayed... don't really know why, never really thought hard about does He or something exist or not... does praying do any good, bad or nothing at all... but the thing is, I always did it... well, at least from a few years  until now...

But I never really prayed for stuff like "oh God, let me pass the exam please!", "God, I really want that t-shirt but  my mom doesn't want to give it to me, please make it happen" or any kind of selfish stuff like that... in fact... I hardly ever prayed for anything that could be good for me... all I always "said"  was "thank you for everything you've given me and make  everyone happy and well"... and that's usually what I always said... but ever since... I don't know... 3... 4... or more months I've also been praying for something else... thanking for something to have entered my life and asking for it to stay until the end of time, no matter what would happen that "thing" would never be far from me, and I also always pledge the oath that I would do anything in my power to make that person happy and give her all that she needs...

I still do pray that, both of the things... the first is a general thing of course, but the second is as if I was really asking him face-to-face to grant that...

That's pretty much what I had to say... gtg pray in a while if ya know what I mean... meh... I've been going to bed really  late these days....


Also, I want a dog :/